Since I know that pretty much just my family reads this I'm going to get kind of personal here. Bare with me...
So I'm sitting here on a warm spring night in my bed for the fourth night in a row. Not only am I sick with something nasty (hopefully not mono!) but I'm really struggling with a few things right now. Here goes...
1) I think Tony and i are calling it quits. i still care a lot about him but i don't wanna feel down about it anymore... i dont know what to do.
2) I don't know what i should do about swimming next year. in case you havent heard, they suggested i get another surgery on my shoulder but i dont think it's worth it. so pretty much i woud just swim through the pain. it's tolerable, but it's difficult. i do like swimming though for some reason. i'm really struggling with this decision.
3) I dont know what i'm going to do this summer. i was too late on internships because i thought for sure i'd be staying here for the summer to swim. whether i swim or not i need a break from east lansing.
4) getting sick right at the end of school is the worst timing possible. not only are exams next week but this is the fun time of year to go out with friends because it's warm out. everyone is out having fun and im stuck in my room pondering all off the decisions that lie before me.
needless to say, family, i need help. I always talked to tony about these things and now that we aren't getting along for the time being, i really need you guys. i know i've never really asked for it but... please offer up a prayer or two for me. i'm feeling overwhelmed and down and out. i could really use it.
i miss you all. mom, dad, and jen, ill see you this weekend. thank god for that because i need to get out of here SO BAD!
